10 Things to Remember When Dealing with Anxiety
This week marks the next step on my path towards feeling whole again. I've been out of program for two weeks now and have spent that time thinking about what I want this journey to look like. I've realized that I need whatever it is I do to have a deeply spiritual aspect. My issues go deeper than something like cognitive-behavioural therapy (CBT) can treat*. My sadness and anxiety come from my core, and that influences every single thought and perception that runs through my mind.
My plan going forward is to meld narrative therapy with many other philosophies that you do not find in the Western Medical Model in regards to treating mental illness. While I will still be going to counselling, it is a type of counselling that focuses on using creativity to heal. I am working with my doctor for medications to help manage some of symptoms of mental illness and chemical imbalances, but I'm also looking more into holistic health and using herbs, spices and probiotics to treat the issues as well as the symptoms. I have an appointment with Kael Klassen for shamanic healing. I have started swimming. Hitting bottom has forced me to realize that the way I was living my life was not in tune with what I needed to follow my highest path - I am taking this time to reset and redirect.
To honour this, today I am sharing the pieces that stuck with me through program. These are the things that helped me get past thinking suicide was my only option. They are what helped me realize that maybe there is another way out of this. These touchstones are what I try and go back to on the days where it takes me three tries to get myself out of bed, or I spend my nights in a ball exhausted because I've had so many panic attacks that day. My hope is one of them may be what you need to read in this moment. And if not, that is okay too.